That Sort Of Courtyard
Peering down from the balcony of my seventh-floor hotel room, I spy a woman in the courtyard. It’s one of those California faux Hacienda-style courtyards, wistfully recalling the lost days of Spanish occupation and the large landed estates used for ranching or farming by the proud landholders, lots of land that would someday become the cities we recognize today as San Diego and Los Angeles, Santa Barbara and Monterey, Carmel and Sacramento. A mosaic of brick and clay and mortar and limestone and warm earth colors. Soft brown clay pottery in the flower beds. Four columns of trees rising from circular concrete embattlements in the far corners of the courtyard, the tips towering above the roof of the hotel.
And on a warm night like this you can almost hear the mariachi music blaring and see the long and colorful Spanish skirts swaying to the vibrant, life-affirming music and smell the frijoles and char-broiled pollo on the wind. You can taste the tequila and the vain-glory in your throat. And the dust too; you choke on that.
It was that sort of courtyard. A California courtyard. A Los Angeles courtyard.
And there was a woman in that courtyard. She wore a solid black dress and clutched a red purse to her bosom with one hand. With the other hand, she gestured frantically in the air as she engaged in animated discussion with a squat white-haired elderly gentleman in a dark sportcoat and slacks. The woman in the black dress with the red purse, it appeared from my limited vantage point, was no one’s idea of youth either.
I smoked a cigarette, unwinding from another day on set, and spied upon their conversation, feeling like a silent movie-goer in the twenty-second balcony row at some grand old movie palace, unable to read the title cards from such nosebleed seats.
But the story went something like this: blah, blah, blah, I’m really pissed off about this and (wave of the hand in the air) blah, blah, blah, Goddamn those sonsofbitches.
Suddenly the white-haired gentleman in the sportcoat and slacks recalls that conversation is a two-way street. He now has a thing or two to offer to the dialogue; and as he delivers his aria he, too, gestures frantically in the air with his hands. And then she raises her voice an octave against his, drowning out his protests with eardrum-splitting intensity; her hands flail like butterflies with a language of their own.
Abruptly the hand speech between the old woman in the black dress and the old man in the sportcoat unite in meaning. They speak loudly and gesture with great force and emphasis with their electrically-charged digits and limbs, at the same thing, in unified purpose, the topic that has brought their vicious, sustaining bile around to something they can both bitterly agree upon …
… the sad and sagging leaves of the olive tree in the fake Spanish courtyard.
Previously in Return to L.A., Briefly: Combat Mission

May 7, 2008 at 2:36 am
What a meaty slice of life. I thought you were talking about my mother for a minute there…! Love the last line.
Great blog - I shall return!
May 7, 2008 at 8:47 am
Thank you ever so, Simonne.
May 7, 2008 at 8:49 am
wonderful details–vivid
thanks for the trip
question: I’ve been trying to check out the Carver story on the blog (under read some Carver) and it won’t load. any tips?
May 7, 2008 at 8:52 am
How strange. It loads on my browser. In any event, here it is:
YOUR DOG DIES
it gets run over by a van.
you find it at the side of the road
and bury it.
you feel bad about it.
you feel bad personally,
but you feel bad for your daughter
because it was her pet,
and she loved it so.
she used to croon to it
and let it sleep in her bed.
you write a poem about it.
you call it a poem for your daughter,
about the dog getting run over by a van
and how you looked after it,
took it out into the woods
and buried it deep, deep,
and that poem turns out so good
you’re almost glad the little dog
was run over, or else you’d never
have written that good poem.
then you sit down to write
a poem about writing a poem
about the death of that dog,
but while you’re writing you
hear a woman scream
your name, your first name,
both syllables,
and your heart stops.
after a minute, you continue writing.
she screams again.
you wonder how long this can go on.
May 7, 2008 at 4:53 pm
Oh wow, that’s so powerful without trying to be - actually it’s amazing, I have to read it again… yep, amazing.
I like it here
May 7, 2008 at 10:06 pm
Thank you, Simonne. Welcome aboard and please do stick around. “Your Dog Dies” is my absolute favorite Carver poem, a nice meditation on the creative process and its external influences.
May 8, 2008 at 12:03 pm
The cover of my oldest novel is a watercolor of that sort of courtyard.
May 8, 2008 at 12:58 pm
I love those courtyards. So beautiful.
That’s also a wonderful poem.
May 9, 2008 at 12:05 am
hey thanks…it’s loading now. you never know.
that’s a great carver poem but hey i’m partial to carver. i teach his colection where i’m calling from. my fav poem is well…hmmm i love the last fragment about being beloved, and the one about bukowski that’s in fires (you oughtta post that actually with your little bukowski affair going here) but my absolute fave is the path to the waterfall, the new shoes gleaming…well and, yup, i’m a goner
i was actually looking for a short story online. looks like i will be typing up “little things” aka “popular mechanics” to use for a final for my college lit class tomorrow…oops today. that blog is http://whisperdownthewritealley.wordpress.com…i may use this poem too. hard to know for sure here in the the dead of night after reading 10 page research papers all day for 3 days…are we there yet? is that the light?
May 9, 2008 at 12:14 am
You know, I never read that Carver poem about Bukowski.
Where do you teach, artpredator?
May 9, 2008 at 8:04 pm
I liked that one.
May 9, 2008 at 9:07 pm
Thank you, David.
June 25, 2008 at 9:22 am
i teach at Ventucky college, just north of LA, so of SB
have you read the carver poem about bukowski yet? there’s a great essay about B’s visit to UCSC when carver was teaching there–I’ll get you the ref if you want
June 25, 2008 at 10:32 am
Please find that for me, Teach. The poem is legenday among Bukowski purists. I’ve heard a lot about it but don’t know what volume it is in, certainly not in any of the Carver collections I have on hand.